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♥ 8:16 PM

hoho. specially posted this for yokeling!! :DD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
OMEDATO GOZAIMASU!!

a hug is worth a thousand words. a friend is worth more. <3

♥ 7:29 PM

woohoo. the 200th post. :D

just came back from church.
i noe it's boring and irritating to read my posts as it's mostly about how i felt during saturdays and it has been always the same things. i'm really sorry for that but i think i shld type it out since i dunno how to tell anyone.
sometimes i really hope that anyone can just take notice of me.
someone did talked to me today and i am really happy. just a simple 'hi', i'm contented. really. but i just dunno how to react to the 'hi's.
i'm really affected by this loneliness that i felt everytime i'm there.
i guess i deserve it since i just dun dare to talk to anyone.
i'm just a loner and antisocial. no one will want to talk to me.
i noe that they tried. so i've knew that it has always been my problem. i bring all these stupid things to myself.
heavy heart, empty hole. my heart so filled with negative thoughts that i can really feel that my heart is sinking. though my heart was filled up, it's empty. a hurricane named loneliness just swept everything away leaving destruction behind. i can't clear them up. it's too difficult for me. i yearned for someone to help me, but there's no one.
i'm useless and unnecessary. everytime i would think that it's better for me not to be there. it won't make any difference even if i'm not there. no one might even ask why. i may not be able to answer that question though.
stupid me just dun dare to anything. stupid me just dunno what to talk about. stupid me just hate that kind of feeling. stupid me just dun want to go for anything thats related to them cos i'm afraid. i just dun have that courage to face it again.
she told me to tell them honestly how i felt. but i can't. there's nowhere i can pluck out some courage to do that. even if they asked, i dunno how to say.

ps. exams coming. i'm not prepared.

♥ 11:18 PM

muahahahaha. blogger's back to normal! YAY.
okay, i shall pao qi my livejournal for awhile. hahas. i so bad.
anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINGRONG!!! :DDDDD

and also, happy birthday hu ge! hahas.

ps. depressed.

♥ 10:07 PM

hello.
had chged to using livejournal.
here's the link:
http://br-okenstring.livejournal.com

♥ 9:20 PM

blogger still have this serious problem. hope it's solved soon.

is already in holiday mood but still nid to get up early to go to sch.
i had been slacking right from friday till today.
just that i managed to complete Amaths ex8.1 just now.
anyway, i went back to primary on monday. met up wih pri sch frens and walked around the sch and looked for teachers together. really missed them alot. i hope i can see them soooon. :D
the teachers dun really recognise me and there's one teacher whom i dun recognise.
hahas. sorry ehhh, but i know that she's my CME teacher i think on 2004 or sth.

after that me and sixuan went hougang mall with maynard.
but he disappeared halfway when he said he wanted to go popular first.
we walked around for awhile and went home since sixuan got tuition.
then tuesday went to cut my hair with sixuan and spent more than an hour in the salon.
hahas.
then we went for lunch and went home cos sixuan got piano lesson.
i am supposed to be revising for EOY from now on but then i just dun have the motivation to study.
in the end i slacked the whole day, basically doing nothing at all or just walking up and down the house.
such a waste of time. haizz.

ps. SIAN.

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